Have you ever noticed how depressing some kids’ songs are?

“You are my sunshine” – an unrequited love that leaves the singer in tears.

The other night dear
As I lay sleeping
I dreamed I held you in my arms
When I awoke dear
I was mistaken
And I held
My head
And cried

“Puff the Magic Dragon” – the dragon gets so sad his friend is gone, he hides off in his cave and doesn’t come out.

A dragon lives forever but not so little boys 
Painted wings and giant rings make way for other toys. 
One grey night it happened, Jackie paper came no more 
And puff that mighty dragon, he ceased his fearless roar. 

His head was bent in sorrow, green scales fell like rain, 
Puff no longer went to play along the cherry lane. 
Without his life-long friend, puff could not be brave, 
So puff that mighty dragon sadly slipped into his cave. oh! 

“Hi Lili Hi Lo” – love is a very sad thing, a tale of woe, and leads only to heartache.

A song of love is a sad song,
Hi-Lili, Hi-Lili, Hi-Lo
A song of love is a song of woe
Don’t ask me how I know
A song of love is a sad song
For I have loved and it’s so
I sit at the window and watch the rain,
Hi-Lili, Hi-Lili, Hi-Lo
Tomorrow I’ll probably love again,
Hi-Lili, Hi-Lili, Hi-Lo.

I wonder why the songs are so… sad… less than hopeful. I didn’t think anything of it as a kid — I just enjoyed the music and dancing and singing along.

Maybe I need to get back to that place again.



Civic, you are much missed.

My parents shipped three big containers to me this week. Photographs from my day as a reporter, scrapbooks, letters, notes passed in class, past articles, toys, you  name it.

In going through one of the boxes, I found a photo album with letters from one of my pen pals. I’ve tried in the past to try to track her down, but her name seems common enough that she’s tough to find. This time, though, I have found a few more hints about her that might help me find her.

So let’s give this a shot.

Her name is Darla Thompson. She’ll be 40 in May. She lived in Conyers, GA, and went to a few different schools: Honey Creek School in 1981, Edwards Middle School for Grade 6 in 1982, and Conyers Middle School for Grade 7 in 1983. She has a brother named Mark who went to Heritage High School, and her parents are Joel and Dianne. We became pen pals through a Girl Guides/Girl Scouts pen pal program. In searching for her name, it looks like she might have gone to Rockdale County High School, but I can’t be sure that I found the right person, and I’m not keen on spending $7 US to access a Gold membership on Classmates for a month just to send a message there.

If anyone knows how to track her down, please leave a comment.

I’ve managed to track down a couple of pen pals in the past, and am curious to see what Darla is up to.

Thanks, interwebs. 🙂 I hope you are able to help me out!

Today, as I read through my Google News, I came across a story about a man who created a beautiful birthday video for his wife, complete with a couple of famous folks making cameo appearances.

Watching this video brought me to tears. I was touched by the love, the strength, the weakness and the hope in his words… I am reminded (and have been reminded a fair amount lately… not sure why) how important it is to live each day to its fullest (as cliche as that sounds), and live and love and celebrate. Things that in any normal day are easy to overlook as other things are given priority.

I wish Kristian and Rachel and their boys all the best, wishing all of them strength and hope.

Today is Rachel’s birthday. She’s heading out the door to church with the boys and I’m staying at home…. supposedly to do some house work and also because it’s only been a week since chemo and I’m *cough*cough* not feeling too good *cough*cough*. Truth be told the last 4 weeks I have been on a marathon planning crusade to organise a surprise party as well as a few other bits and pieces. Rachel is a very social creature, not like me at all in th … Read More

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As part of my job, I have to find out what some of our alumni have been doing since they graduated. It’s a really interesting part of my job – there are so many people who have done amazing things, from scientific research to travel to going into space. But it’s hard not to look at myself and where I’ve been, and not wonder what I could have done if I’d had the focus/dedication/support/strength/whatever to do it.

I’ve never been to space. I haven’t done a lot research-wise. I’m not exactly on a “climbing the ladder” career path… not at this point, anyway. My attention span when it comes to things seems to be short. Finding my professional niche is proving to be challenging, as I tend to be more confident about the things I do outside of work than I am about the things I do at work.

Even though I’ve done some pretty neat things in my life thus far (built a boardwalk in a beaver pond; worked at a weekly paper in Northwestern Ontario and met some pretty amazing folks, moved to the Maritimes with my cat), it’s hard not to look at these accomplishments and not wonder. Comparing myself to someone else isn’t really a good idea, I know – everyone has their own path. But really, there are things I finally learned (I think I’ve learned these things – I’m at least aware of them moreso now) that in hindsight would have been helpful to me in figuring out other things. But then, if I had known things back then, would I be where I’m at right now? Because where I’m at right now really isn’t all that bad.

So what would I have liked to have learned sooner?

  • How to better appreciate and digest constructive feedback instead of internalizing and taking it as criticism. (Not sure that this is something I’ve learned yet, but I’m aware of it.
  • How to be able to focus on something longer, and not feel like I’m wandering aimlessly through life.
  • To take advantage of all opportunities and give things a shot even though they’re really f***ing scary. (I have learned this in some ways)
  • To better listen to my gut when it’s telling me something doesn’t fit.
  • To find the strength/persistence/something that will keep me from feeling discouraged, which inevitably leads to my sitting back and not even bothering.
  • To learn the value of speaking up and voicing thoughts/opinions/ideas/questions without fear of negative reaction or hysterical laughter at my self-diagnosed stupidity.
  • How to trust that people are genuinely interested in me and what I’m doing, and not doubting their intentions.
  • How to be patient and work through the frustrating moments.

There’s still a lot for me to learn – much of what I posted above are things I’m aware of moreso than what I’ve actually learned and am putting into practice.

What have you learned, or realized you still need to learn?

For a number of months I’ve been distracted from ‘normal’ life. Work has been part of it – I’m still in the process of adapting to a new work world, and finding my niche and building up my confidence in myself and my abilities.

Two weeks ago, I got married. This was something I did not predict ever happening to me – those who know my relationship history may understand some of it, and my nomadic nature for quite a few years made it easy to keep people at arm’s length, despite a desire to feel connected. This has been a very easy thing – no doubts, no fears… just slowly moving into the next phase of a relationship. The honeymoon was wonderful – camping for a week, touring around, and generally relaxing a great deal. I think today, in some ways, I’m going through a bit of withdrawal – there has been so much going on in the last few months that there wasn’t a lot of time to stop and breathe. Now that the big things have passed, there’s time to catch my breath and figure out the next steps. Like finally choosing my fall course for my masters. Or deciding when to go camping before the weather gets too cold.

I’m hoping that in the next few months I can get back into writing here a little more regularly… not sure just who is following me here anymore (if anyone right now), but for now the writing will be for me. Slightly introspective, hopefully a bit fun.

But for now? Back to work.

… but I am alive.

Since getting engaged in September, and taking courses for my masters, it’s been a very busy six months. Lots of readings, lots of assignments, a busy holiday season in Newfoundland, and planning a wedding — it makes it really hard to sit and write at times.

But I’m going to be making a concerted effort to get back here more often and share my thoughts, happenings and such.

So if you’ve hung in this long and still peek in here now and again, leave me a comment to let me know. 🙂

Seriously – it’s NOVEMBER??!!! Where did October go??

I haven’t been writing here as often as I had been in the past. I’m lurking and seeing what my friends are up to, but finding the time and thoughts to write here is proving to be challenging at times.

Life is pretty busy – I’ve got two courses to keep up with, which feels challenging but Steve feels I’m doing well at. Work is keeping me busy as well, with meetings and writing to do and lots of learning still being done. The wedding planning is still in the back of my mind, but creeping up now and again with ideas, thoughts and brainstorms. I’ve been keeping my wedding blog updated fairly regularly, but even that’s facing less attention than it had been. Even spending time with our friends is reduced a great deal, and I miss them. 🙂 I also have something happening on Nov 12 that has me a little nervous.

Even some of my friends here have been more silent than they had been in the past, and I’m figuring their lives have presented them with unexpected things, distracting things, fun things that are needing their attention. Which I totally understand. 🙂

All in all, I’m doing ok. Balancing everything at times is a struggle, but I’m getting through. I’ll be done my coursework by Dec 7, and then will have a couple of weeks to relax before Christmas.

All in all, I can’t complain. 🙂

I guess that’s about it. I’m going to get a few work things done, sip some more tea, and try to get myself organized a little bit.

How are you doing, my friends? Did you have a good Hallowe’en?

It’s been a while since I’ve taken time to write here. Even my other journals have been neglected – well, other than the wedding planning one. 😆 That’s one blog that I’ve been having fun updating. Being engaged for almost a month has been a lot of fun.

If you haven’t been following that blog, we’ve finalized our date and venue and the wedding party. I’m starting to update the blog with photos of our wedding party, and have ideas already for other things.

It’s been interesting reading different wedding blogs, discussion boards and other wedding-themed sites. The more I read, the more fortunate I feel. I have a great relationship with my mom and future mother-in-law (FMIL), my family and Steve’s family are very happy and supportive of us, and our friends (both local and in other places) are happy and supportive too. There are so may people who write and talk about the drama that comes up with a wedding – not liking dresses, parents not liking their child’s partner, friends getting bitchy about being in a wedding party… it amazes me the issues that come up. I really feel lucky to have the great friends and family I do, and to not have any (so far) issues coming up between friends or family or whatever. And Steve’s looking forward to our day big time. 🙂

And that’s a key thing – it’s OUR day.

But add to life my new job. I’ve finished my third week, and I’m really enjoying myself. It’s been a good introduction so far – a few great projects to work on, a lot of new people to meet and lots that I’ve been learning. The interesting thing is being a non-alumni person working at this university. It amazes me how many people I’ve met so far are very connected to the campus and school and faculty. I look at my relationship with my previous schools – Laurier I don’t feel very connected to, but I’m still in touch with my instructors from Humber and Loyalist. It’s going to be interesting to see what my relationship is like with the Mount when I finish my masters. 🙂 With Laurier, I went to university and spent most of my time there not knowing what I wanted to be doing or learning, or what I wanted to do when I was finished, and I don’t know if the university would have been able to have a good relationship with me.

But I digress. 🙂 It’s been a good three weeks – working on a calendar, working closely with the graphics staff, holding down the fort while my boss was on vacation. It was all good!

And my coursework is going fairly well – it’s been hard to find a balance between work, coursework and fun stuff. I’m learning a lot, though, and I think I’m slowly getting my brain rewired to think theoretically while still having to be a practical thinker at work.

All in all, I don’t really have a lot to complain about! 😀

How are you? It’s been a while!

Congratulations to Willard S Boyle, originally of Amherst, NS and current resident of Halifax, and now Nobel Prize winner for his work in physics. Without you and your partner’s work, we wouldn’t have digital imaging technology!

And I really love the wisdom in this quote:

“Know how to judge when to persevere and when to quit. If you’re going to do something, do it well. You don’t have to be better than everyone else, but you ought to do your personal best.”

Back in the day…

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